Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Never Before

I no longer have the severe insomnia that gave this blog utility in the early days, but at least I'm up late. I'm not doing the traditional "mastering new SQL injection techniques and installing operating systems while blasting trance and house music and taking Enemy Territory breaks," but the key bit about being up far past my bedtime is in play here.

I've gotten tired of the kind of writing I've been doing lately. For those who don't know (lol who even reads this anymore) I've been doing a bunch of wiki writing lately. Specifically, I was writing humor articles for a site called Encyclopedia Dramatica. That site is sort of like Wikipedia, except all of the articles are fake and intended to be humorous. I guess I got tired of the hypertexty way of writing I was doing (notice the two links in this paragraph alone? That's unusual for this blog, but super-normal for an article at a place like Encyclopedia Dramatica). I got bored with the humor too. Most of the articles weren't written to a standard I appreciated, and even though I was good at (and enjoyed) rewriting bad articles, I certainly wasn't going to dedicate a ton of time to fixing other people's bad work.

I wanted to reread a series of comments on one of Dema's old posts tonight. After finding it, I realized how long ago we were active on the blogs. It's 2011 in a few days, and we wrote that spiel at the beginning of 2009. That's just short of 2 years. Not a terribly long time, but longer than I thought. I got to thinking about the sort of culture we had back then.

Dema's mention of "blog wars" reminded me of the good things that happened then. In most of my reminiscences of that time I feel only negative feelings about the stupid things I thought, said and did. Dema's words helped me remember that good things did happen.

I'm going to try to write things here over the next few months. I need to write. It's my hobby and an important release. I won't have a chance to write decent English-language work for any classes next semester - most of it will be bullshit for American Heritage. This blog will serve as the replacement for all the writing I've done for skool for the last several years and for the writing I've been doing at Encyclopedia Dramatica since about May.

I need more than a chance to write. I need a good culture. The crews I've been hanging with lately haven't been too good. The Encyclopedia Dramatica group started off pretty good, but some key members turned into major jerks and a bunch of new assholes showed up to fill in empty slots. The Gay Niggers Association of America, the other online community I hang out with, is still pretty nice, but I need to spend more time "IRL" than I have been. I have new hockey skates and a new guitar. I have an old guitar, a bass, and a banjo. I have thousands of dollars worth of photographic equipment. I have paints, pens and paper. I have books by the ton, including one I bound myself today. All of this is squandered if I spend all night in some chatroom gossiping.

Here's to 2011. May I write in peace. May I write, period. May I find more time to go outside. May I write a decent song. May I paint a decent picture. May I not rewatch every single episode of Law and Order and BONES, again. May I maybe get a damned girlfriend (about time, isn't it). I've got everything going for me: new roommate, new apartment mates, new season, new haircut.

Tomorrow I'm going to bind another book, get my TB test results, and maybe write a bit. I'm going to do some laundry.

On the Radio: "Never Before," by Deep Purple.